My Fall and Rise again

During the time I joined a major singing competition at the RTL Germany TV production, I was lucky enough I passed round one of the singing audition which was casting at the Marriot Hotel. My schedule was 3pm and after I sing the first time, I was shocked the judges in one room clap her hands and hug me and said to me wow you have a nice voice, and I was selected alone for another round alone later that day. I was shocked like wow! shaking so bad lol, because its different than in Theater where I play also not million audience I mean not broadcast whole world. Just there in theater opera as RTL is tv station and live well known, so really different.

After an hour they came back to me telling me what to do and to prepare my round 2 audition, so I waited and we proceed to another room where many cameras around me were filming and interviewing me.Then before I started they asked me to introduce myself. I remember I got 3 songs with me 'WITHOUT YOU' by Mariah and I think ' and ONE LAST CRY' but they don't ask for more songs. When I finished singing then they asked me what my message is to the top judges, I can't even remember what was my message was.So then at the time of my 2nd round audition they didn't let me know if I pass at that moment because they said the higher judges including Dieter Bohlen were the ones to decide.

For me I was just trying only, as I know I can sing not the best, but ts ok because since I was a teenager I was a choir gospel member in a church and also do singing in theater in vienna. In my mind obviously I would not join in singing contest to embarrass myself if I cannot sing at all.Later in june I got a call from the RTL crew saying I passed my singing audition. I was happy at the time, and they booked and paid for my plane ticket, all transport and accommodation from Graz to go to the RTL studio in Germany to perform the final live rounds.A week before travelling to the audition I was starting to feel sick with a fever and sore throat, and was still feeling unwell at the time, but I just went ahead and didn't say anything at the time.

It was my final moment and I was shaking so bad and I felt my temperature getting worse and I supposed to start at 12 noon according to schedule but due to delays with many performers I had to start 6pm and I was very bad already, my eyes were already red my fever and my throat was still sore.I could not just back out and say no when I got there already because I felt embarrassed as they paid everything for me to get there so I felt I had to continue my final moment. I was shocked what happened to me.

I could feel the RTL loved and cared for me there and among the contestants they were asking me over and over to take my time and rehearse.I was so mad at myself and felt so bad what happened to me I didn't have control of anything.So, guys to learn your lesson you need to be physically fit and healthy before going to any major competition. Singing in front of the crowd is not that easy, but if you have a good voice then its no problem. I know its not my fault but people in the crowd did not know what was behind the scenes.

They don't know what I was going through personally, people judge you without knowing about you but because they do not know me I don't care. Singing in front of the crowd is not that easy, but if you have a good voice then its no problem. I recieved many bullies in my page at the time it was broadcast, but I moved on and didn't give them time entertain any negativity in my life. I know myself I can sing. There's no point in proving to anyone what you can do, only God will know what is in your heart.
I believe after the rain there is always a rainbow, like now I am ok again back on track.